life con't

besides the fact that the sun has finally broken, i find that i want it to disappear. with the mail today came news that we have kinda been expecting, yet, not really wanting to hear about. i find myself horribly torn between what i am hoping is the truth, and the things i have heard. the news brings it to a whole 'nother reality when faced with actual papers in black and white. i hate when things are out of my control; our control.

right now, i want the sun to disappear and i want to go back to bed and not get out until i want to....

i find it interesting in the fact that "bullying" goes on everyday everywhere in some form- verbally, physically, and yet it has somehow found our doorstep. i find it interesting when we were faced with it, the "people" did not want to hear from us (basically because we were not from here, and obviously do not have the right last name nor related to the right people), but, that aside....how interesting that one act of accidental can totally change the direction of life, and yet as i listen to the news, i find that this fact will never change.

i used to think it was simply a kid thing, but, i find it obviously can occur at any age. life can completely change and the direction, hopes, aspirations can radically change.

so life is interesting, apparently good, bad or completely otherwise; but, right now, i just want the tears to come and wash away the dirt. i just want to get to the other side and maybe, but, not necessarily see the rainbow.

life

life has been busy....we are into track season- not spring just for the record. but, seriously, i have been so enjoying the track meets! we have had some of the best weather for them- i have been so thankful! and to see tk run- wow! brings back memories!! she is doing an awesome job; only 7th grade and participating in many of the varsity meets...

tomorrow is her birthday! and she is sooo excited! finally an actual teenager- omg!! i have a small surprise for the morning to open immediately upon awaking cause you know it's her birthday; i have pizza ordered for her english class because clearly her english teacher must think she is ok- she sent home a list of what pizza the kids in class liked?!; i made a chocolate cake with chocolate frosting for her homeroom class because her class is small, and her homeroom teacher was her basketball coach- and he thinks it's ok especially if cake is involved; and the last thing, is surprise birthday balloons weighted with two bags of snickers snack size! now reading all of this listed, i'm not sure i will want her home after all that sugar!! anyway, it is a very good day tomorrow!! one that hopefully she will enjoy!

happy thursday

these pics make me laugh! thought i would share....they are of myself and our youngest. i was picking on him, and told him we had to do the "facebook" look with the peace sign. he of course, thought i was perfectly crazy!

spring has arrived

i am finally feeling like spring is here...and here to stay. last year at this time, i think we still had a snow storm or two lurking around.

last night,
hearing the kids playing in the driveway (giggles, balls bouncing, and no glass being broken...we have already had a casualty or two)
feeling the warm concrete on my bare feet (the little grit of the concrete on my winter soft skin)
seeing my tulips finally poking their colorful heads up (mine seem to be a little slower than the rest of the neighborhood)

with spring, hope is eternal; life cycles, and even after a very cold snowy season of life, things manage to patiently wait for the gentle warmth to melt away that cold; giving them a chance to grow,and blossom again.

saturday evening rumble....

i have been very patiently waiting for this day to come since january....our local roller derby girls are hosting a home double header!! our whole family is going...my husband did not want me seeing the action without him, our oldest just wants to check it out, our daughter is thinking it is way cool (we may have to be concerned here, because she loves to roller skate anyway, and then, you get to shove people around- awesome!), and our youngest is going be virtue of dictatorship....cause the parents said so! details to come soon!

tuesday morning

yesterday morning=crappy

got the kids to school and decided i needed a cranberry-orange muffin before going to work, and that i should enjoy the muffin at the little coffee shop as well; why spoil a perfectly good muffin by taking it to work with myself.

so, i go to find a table to quietly eat my muffin, when i get invited to sit with the group of ladies that came in behind me. at first, i politely said i would be ok, but, then, had a change of heart and decided-what the heck!

so there were four at the table to start with and they were asking question about me, and the one lady says, so, welcome to luverne! how long have you been here? and i said, it will be 10 years this spring. they were all like, OMG- where have you been hiding? and then, almost if on queue someone new would come to the table and each time someone new came the group would introduce me as new to town because i have only been here 10 years and then, they would all laugh again!

at the end, i did need to go to work unfortunately, but, apparently they must have liked me because they said to come and join the group any tuesday and that they would add my name to the "list" to buy.

so crappy day=totally adverted over a small leap of faith, great group of ladies, muffin and cup of coffee

happy easter....

quite the day we had here today. our neighbor gentleman had offered to buy easter dinner because i always cook and he did not want me to slave away today...god bless him.

(a little back ground on the neighbor...he is mid 80's, and his wife passed away the winter we moved into our house, and, unfortunately we did not get a chance to meet here; he does not have children, and his family is all "getting up there in age" and do not travel and usually do not travel for the holidays- so, our neighbor is usually by himself- especially for the holidays. so, as long as we are home, i always invite him over to join the holiday for dinner at least....)

quite the feast we had here today- and i did not slave away today (i did some cooking yesterday, but, recruited the kids to help with everything and it was so much fun and alot less work). we served 16 today and laid out the tables to accommodate us all...there is nothing better than a huge bunch of family...lively conversation, food, a good holiday, wonderful weather...

we finished the day by going to an easter play put on by one of the local churches. it was very good and a very visual reminder of the reason for the day- jesus has risen, let us all rejoice....god bless all of you!